This week an “on this day” popped up on my Facebook from six years ago…www.endosupport.blogspot.com. My old blog, just shy of 10 posts. I gave up, planned to take time off and never wrote again. I lacked dedication and patience. I still do at times now. I have not been writing or vlogging much lately. I am burnt out.
There has always been this hole ,in my life so I fill it with a side hustle…then I lose focus and find another side hustle. After that blog, it was grad school.
I have a burning desire to want more, I cannot turn it off. More to come on this in another blog.
When I saw this reminder this week. I felt instant regret. SIX YEARS?! WHY Melissa?
I could have…
Helped so many people
Been on the cutting edge of vlogging and blogging
Be where I want to be RIGHT NOW.
But I gave up…so much regret and regret is poison.
Something, I have realized this week even before my first cute blog showed up. I distract myself with work, my job. I throw myself into it and allow it to consume me 100% every single day. I am always connected and always available. This leads to my burn out which crushing my creative thinking side which propels me to move forward with my desires.
Work is easy, I know how to do it. I know how to crush 100 emails in an hour, solve problems, project manager, lead people. But when it comes to what I really want to do it’s a challenge and I believe that I’d prefer to distract myself and work 80 hour weeks, but stressed and avoid doing what is scary and new. Is this hard to admit, yes. But I have the self-awareness and that can only lead me to what I really want and need to be doing.
What are you doing to avoid what you really want in life?
Stop whatever it is and start now because in a year it could change your entire life. Won’t you be thankful that you started today?
I’d love to hear what you are going to start today?